One of the many “perks” of my mental illness is anxiety. Anxiety is heightened when I’m manic, but it can flare up at the worst times. Although I’ve taken Paxil for this for years, it recently started to not be effective when I’m trying to sleep–as a result, I’ve been put on Trazodone to supplement the Paxil and my sleeping pill. It’s working, but unfortunately my body is adjusting to it.

The best way I can describe it is I’m really freaking tired. All the time. I have little energy, and it feels like I’m fighting rapids while going upstream when I so much as get out of a chair. It’s been getting better the past few days, but sadly I’m not quite in the right mindset to be writing right now. This is why my Tuesday update last week didn’t come, and is why I won’t be updating this week (unless I adjust well enough to do so). I will try again next week, so stay tuned.